The past six months or so I’ve been gradually coming out from under the dark cloud of PPD. As they say “hind sight is 20/20″ and looking back on the first year of Ian’s life I can see how seriously depressed I was. But God is merciful and gracious and brought me through it. In thinking back to Ethan’s surgery last week, I am so grateful to God for his healing because had Ethan had the surgery a year ago, I would not have made it through it. Despite my mommy worries about him going through the surgery I really was able to handle the stress of it. I’ve also noticed the past couple of months that I have been able to handle lack of sleep as well. Ian got up two hours early the past two mornings and a year ago, I would have been crying all day because I was so tired but this morning I was able to take it in stride. I have learned that it is crucial for me to stay committed to reading the word, praying, as well as reading Godly books in order to me to stay on this path (thus the reason for all the books I have mentioned in previous posts). Lastly, I have found myself being more social and I realized that after Ian was born I tended to want to stay home more and not go anywhere. I’ve met two neighbors who have kids the boy’s age and interestingly they both take their kids to Ian’s music class. So the point of this reflection is to share my thankfullness to the Lord for his work in me and my prayer for continued growth away from depression and toward the joy of the Lord.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Phil 4:6-7.