I’m recovering from a bad sinus infection, and because of the medication I’m taking, I haven’t been sleeping. This has given me a lot of extra time for thinking-thus my title, pensive thoughts. I’ve so much time to think in the middle of the night that my thoughts have thoughts!

With school starting back this week for my oldest, I found that neither of us were excited about it. He frequently complains of boredom and says he doesn’t want to go to school. This isn’t good for me because I continue deep in my heart to want to homeschool him. I started having an interest in homsechooling when he was about 18months and it has not gone away. (My husband and I compromised on Christian school but then the school we chose turned out to be the wrong fit and so Ethan ended up at the public school). I still don’t feel right when I drop him off at school in the mornings, I just feel like something’s not quite right. I keep thinking this desire to homeschool will go away and lately I’ve been praying to the Lord that if this desire is not from him, to please take it away.

The reasons for wanting to homeschool are many and too much for this post. I think I’m in one of those times in my life that we all face where we think we should go one direction but maybe we’re really supposed to go another. Sometimes the choices we have to make in life are not that clear, maybe all the choices are good options. How do you pick one? For me, it’s one of continual prayer and waiting for God to make things clear. In the meantime, we’ll get up bright and early each morning and head for carline trusting in faith that God is sovereign over all our cares and that he has a good plan for us.